I’m sorry.  I know I’m gadgetted-out and it’s utterly redundant (I just bought Alisa), but this is love at first sight.

The Sony Vaio P (Got this pic from Yugatech)

As always, that’s what I’m feeling given that I will be traveling first thing tomorrow morning.  Haaays, I should get used to it, no?!

I don’t know why, but when it comes to these things, my OC-ness always kicks in.  I don’t think I’ll able to sleep later.  I just want to shout out my anxiousness… and nervousness.  God knows I love to travel but it’s the before-flying-out thing that seems dreadful.

I don’t even think I’ve planned enough for this.  But can you really plan for everything?!

Everything will be alright.  Everything will be alright…

I should just keep reminding myself that it will be alright and enjoyable even.

This is what you do. This is part of who you are, for crying out loud!!!

Now I’m talking to myself… in my blog…  Wish me luck!

Update: 02/28 1AM  I think I can finally rest my head for a few hours.  I’m satisfied with the stuff I packed hehe

The Month of Love, that is.  It’s the last Friday of February and I just want to bid farewell to this very interesting month.  Interesting because I have not focused my energies (lovelife-esc energies) towards one person for a long time.  Until now.  And I’m liking where we’re going

I read this very nice calendar quote from Mother Teresa.  It inspires me.  Just thought it would be nice to share with you guys.

I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love.

It makes my heart swell.  It gives me great hope because if a person such as her is capable of a great amount of love, then why not I?  Why not, right?

Anyway, I’m off to Cebu tomorrow.  Have a great weekend everyone!!!

Thank you to Our Awesome Planet for recommending this restaurant.  I never would have gone in.

It’s these things that will make us want to go back to Eat Well for more

Masachi with Chocolate (borrowed the pics from OAP - you never disappoint!!!)

We ordered seconds and take-aways.  Steph got two orders and I got one.  One bite of the chewy goodness on the outside and warm white chocolate surprise inside made us all smile.  It’s that good!

Relax in the presence of people who delight you and who take delight in you.  Have coffee with an old friend.  Take the time to connect and share your life.

I leave you  with these words as I take the day off to spend quality time at home.  I truly need a break within the week just to feel that I am stepping on the breaks, of sorts.

Some more Calendar Wisdom, I really dig this one

Don’t let the past hold you back, you’re missing the good stuff.

I’ve learned this before, and relearned, and relearned it.  In the past, when I was bombarded with one devastating event after another - of death and loss - I’d fall into this trap, a quagmire of self-doubt, pity and loneliness.  Of course our ever resilient heart will one day quell all these things.  But everytime something really bad happened then, I fall into dwelling in the past.  I know I shouldn’t.  I find that I bounce back faster everytime.

The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams. -Eleanor Roosevelt

Haaysss, this is spot on.  I live this belief everyday.  I believe because it is what it is: a fact.  We are who we are, the highest form of being in this Earth, because we can dream.  And when we believe in our beautiful dreams, and work towards them, they can actually come to pass.

Have a great day everyone!!!

Each day for at least 5 minutes, treat yourself to a totally calming silence.

My body screams for that sometimes.  Well, when I get tangled with stressful stuff at work.  Sure that is the thing that happened last week.  The negativity just fed more negativity because I fell in that cycle.  Sometimes you just need to think for a second, and get a little more perspective from the Universe.  It’s there, in your face, sometimes we just get too stubborn to recognize it.

Slow down and enjoy life.  It’s not only the scenery you miss by going too fast, you also miss the sense of where you are going and why. -Eddie Cantor

It was ‘in my face’ all along.  The words that would’ve calmed me down.  I saw them now splattered over my calendar for March. I recognize it now 

Out of the strain of the Doing, into the peace of the Done. - Julia Louise Woodruff

I honestly got derailed last week.  Now I’m trying to get my groove back.

I finally brought home my new PC, installed the software and got it up and running.  At the last minute I decided to upgrade my purchase to a 19″ LCD and I’m loving that decision.  I was meaning to post some new developments of my week since last night but opted to wait for this time.

Anyway, my streak of bad runs with luck is long gone now.  I felt the moment that it all turned for the better.  Ironically, it happened as a conjunction to the climax of my string of unfortunate events.

You see, I was meeting R for dinner and a movie last night.  Now, a few minutes after I got out of the taxi I immediately knew that something was wrong.  Something was missing.  I checked my bag and pockets and under my breath exclaimed, “Oh crap, I dropped my phone…”  A few moments have passed and my panic button had already been switch on.  I just kept on blaming myself for letting all the negativity get to me, that this is the culmination of all of the bad things.  Actually, it really was.  Sweet R was really really worried for me.  A moment of clarity brushed towards me after the panic and remembered that I called a cab company (24/7) to pick us up from the office that night.  So I dialed their number and the nice lady on the other end quickly recognized me since I use them almost everyday.  To make the long story short, after about half an hour I was meeting the driver at Glorietta 4 where he dropped us off and handed me my precious gadget :-).  I, of course, handed him some reward for the trouble, but it really would not pay for the trouble he spared me from.

Anyway, from then on I just felt like my luck is really turning, because something so bad could have happened but in the end I was a recipient of an enormous amount of honesty and courtesy from perfect strangers.  I mean, the driver could have easily denied having the phone inside the cab.  Instead, he made a huge detour from his destination, stopped on the road to look for my phone, and drove all the way back to where we were (on a rush hour).  He was even apologetic to me because he felt he didn’t find it fast enough.  I was thinking, “Hello!!!  All this transpired in about 45 minutes, and that is fast enough.”  I felt my spirit rise at the thought of this good fortune

After that I was on a roll…

• We decided to eat at Dad’s buffet and ended up sitting right next to a good-looking celebrity.  Or rather, the celebrity ended up sitting right next to us
• This morning I phoned the computer store (PC Supplies) to check on my order and everything turned out to be OK.  I was expecting it on Tuesday at the latest.
• I completely assembled and installed the machine in one go.  This is the first time that I did this without having to go back to the store for defective parts and such.

I really can’t thank God enough for helping me bounce back from a very bad work-week.  I am in such gratitude to the universe for making me realize that there is still enough kindness in the world.

Note:  Now I just wanna plug that cab company - 24/7, everyone I come in contact with there is nice - from the people who answer the phone, to the drivers who pick you up.  You can call them through this number: 6423525.

When you don’t have the heart for what you are doing, you are easily discouraged. - Rick Warren

Reading this, I wonder if I am on the right path in my career.  After the week that has passed, admittedly I am a bit discouraged about things.  I am not completely down, but the fort is crumbling…

Don’t waste your life in a job that doesn’t express your heart.

There are opportunities outside to be discovered.  There are changes going on in my Family and business that have opened for me new options.  I am aware that I actually have a choice.  There is a lot to think about in the next couple of days…

In any case, have a blessed weekend everyone

In my mind, I want to picture myself  being there right now.

In Nyhavn, Copenhagen… less chaotic times.  A time when it was about hardwork, enjoyment, friendships… unspoiled by politics and talentless leadership.

I was 24 years old when this was taken.  Like I said, simpler times.

But I may just be in a gloomy mood.  I’m not too shabby right now either.

Haays, just a few more days then I’ll be in Cebu for my first leg of short trips this summer.

I heard myself set a mean tone towards some people at the office for the nth time this week.  This is not good.  This is not me.  The stress of the past few weeks has turned me into an angry person.  Maybe not angry (…yet) but an almost constantly annoyed and impatient one.

Maybe I’m not happy with what I’m doing with my job (anymore).  Maybe I am wanting a change.  Maybe it’s just a phase.  I hope it’s just a phase…

It is said that people tend to focus on the bad things when they come, and the good things tend to grow dim in the background.  I am a grateful person.  Ironically, I am a person who pays homage to my own place in this world with sheer reverie.  I should remind myself of that. Why am I letting petty things keep me away from feelings of content and joy?!?

I would like to make a blanket apology to all those I’ve crossed, in a bad way, while I’ve been in this temperamental state…

Update 02/19:  Scratch some of that apology.  People shouldn’t penalize me for doing the jobs that they were supposed to do.  I am just looking out for my team.  How do you spell ball-less bosses?!?

Ayoko na.

While having coffee, I noticed Ivan balling pieces of tissue paper in a line on the coffee table.  I pointed out that I saw in Law and Order that serial killers did that hehehe

Anyway, look at our table as we left

Hehehe this made us smile.  We SO needed it on a very stressful day like yesterday.

We have a contest going on here at the Firm.  It’s about becoming the voice behind the IVR (Interactive Voice Response) System of the company.  This is basically the voice that says:

 Hi. Thank you for calling [The Firm]. If you know your party’s extension you may enter it now. If you are calling the Helpdesk, press 1. For Support, press 2. If you want to access the company directory using employee’s last name, press 4. To hear these options again, press pound. Or, press 0 for the operator.

Wouldn’t it be cool to hear your voice everytime you called the office!?!  Loving the idea.

The contest ends at the end of the month.  You have to call a specific number and say the message above to audition.

Time to drink my salabat.

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Speaking of calls, wouldn’t it be cool if when i get a call I whip out my phone and the slider reveals a transparent keypad???

Presenting the LG GD900

Saw this on Engadget.  It’s coming out this year…

No amount of mint balms, determination and meditation can make me function today.  I am just way too sleepy to function right.  I can’t text right.  I sent an e-mail and had to struggle keeping myself up in typing ittttt.  Wheneverrr I type onn the keyboardd I find myself doziinng offf for 5 mins at a tiime.  Sometiimess I can’t eeveen speelll right and just hit thhee wwroong keys….aidifjghiowalklllllljfaodkfjslafja….

Update 2PM:  Thank you Ivan for buying me that espresso frappe with extra shot.  I’m back to my old functioning self now.  A few more sips and I’ll be an energizer bunny.

Hail to caffeine!!!!

The Midnight Anxiety was born out of a body of writings that used to grow out of this notebook I had in college.  More like a diary of my thoughts and troubles, I mostly wrote it in the wee hours when I couldn’t sleep, thus the name.  Well, some other good memories came out of my insomniac family.  Such was a time last night when we enjoyed a pie I made over the weekend.

Conversations over a slice (or slices) of pie…  These are fun times…

Have a great Monday everyone!!!